I remember nights Spent crying Waiting for the world to end And all this time The world’s been waiting For me To begin Advertisements
This being loved by them So deeply So honestly Threatens to burn me From the inside out How can I hold onto this Carefully cultivated Blanket of self-hatred If they crawl under To cuddle And find me there Soft and vulnerable Wanting to be loved Wanting more than anything To love As deeply As honestly… Continue reading
We sit here I’m not the good time You were promised I can feel your disappointment radiating You want to keep repeating The same things because you want them To sink in My seemingly thick, thick skull I’m not being difficult Well, maybe just a little I want to do this on my own I… Continue reading
Things have been hard recently. I’m following the Engineer around the house, demanding more hugs and randomly bursting into tears. Part of it is that I feel like I’m invisible. I’m standing in a room with everyone but they can’t see me because I’m four steps to the left of reality or I’m just a… Continue reading March of the Pig
I whisper your name to the fierce wind and my tears fall like leaves scattered into a whirlwind…I hope to the sky where I imagine your atoms are dispersed. You are a part of everything but then again I always thought you were.
My thoughts are in the clouds but the clouds are at my feet misty and clinging too far to comfortably touch just to step on and squash down I keep looking up and ahead for the sun but it’s nowhere to be found and I wonder how long until the fog clears…
I can’t be the only parent in the world that has to write fan fic about the characters in the books you read your kids, right? It’s like kids’ books totally leave out all the good shit!