I am once again tired of being the emotional thermostat for the other people in my home. Why can’t my bad day be my own without everyone coming along for the ride and piling all their shit on top of me so that I can’t possibly feel my feelings without first having to sort through… Continue reading
So this morning I sent my lovely friend a quote that made me think of her. The sentiment was basically that it’s great having a friend who will celebrate the big events in your life but it’s even more awesome having a friend that celebrates when you get out of bed and shower when you’re… Continue reading This is the Thought That Never Ends…
Sometimes grief looks like ugly crying your eyes out in the middle of a big city Burger King. Everyone around you thinks you’re crying about shitty hamburgers when it really has nothing to do with that but you’re crying so hard you can’t breathe. You look completely mental and you realize how ridiculous it all… Continue reading
We sit here I’m not the good time You were promised I can feel your disappointment radiating You want to keep repeating The same things because you want them To sink in My seemingly thick, thick skull I’m not being difficult Well, maybe just a little I want to do this on my own I… Continue reading
Things have been hard recently. I’m following the Engineer around the house, demanding more hugs and randomly bursting into tears. Part of it is that I feel like I’m invisible. I’m standing in a room with everyone but they can’t see me because I’m four steps to the left of reality or I’m just a… Continue reading March of the Pig
I whisper your name to the fierce wind and my tears fall like leaves scattered into a whirlwind…I hope to the sky where I imagine your atoms are dispersed. You are a part of everything but then again I always thought you were.
My thoughts are in the clouds but the clouds are at my feet misty and clinging too far to comfortably touch just to step on and squash down I keep looking up and ahead for the sun but it’s nowhere to be found and I wonder how long until the fog clears…