**trigger warning for sexual assault** The air grew cooler And I gave up I was a stupid pawn Pressed into your hand A toy to pacify you The wildly swinging giant gorilla In the room Self destruction on the tips Of our intertwining tongues I wanted to die And so I think A part of… Continue reading Shake Me Down
The words from your mouth The words on the page overheard, re-read because it’s a blur a haze of days running through my fingers and my mind at speeds so great I can’t focus In flashes I catch them in glimpses I see them I try to grasp them as they fly past someday maybe… Continue reading Speed of Light, Speed of Sound
As with most things that I do to cope, this latest one started with a quirk of mine. I suppose it’s actually another coping mechanism that spawned another one. I went through a period where it was very hard to fall asleep because I’d start panicking and being bombarded by all sorts of intrusive thoughts.… Continue reading I’m the Author of This Story
The water sprays everywhere. I turn it off and sink to the floor, allowing my tears to soak my face and shirt as the rest of me soaks up the cold water from the floor. I sit numbly staring at the darkening line on my shin…more evidence that I am completely out of sync with… Continue reading 4 Steps to the Left
The world will continue to exist without me, yet I have to continue to do so anyway.
I have this fear of my friends getting to know each other. I assume that as soon as they do, they will ditch me and happily enjoy each others’ company far more than they ever did mine. I feel like middle school…like I have nothing to offer someone that’s enough to have them really want… Continue reading Reason #22 Why I Don’t Have Friends
Engineer: Great job cleaning up the kitchen! Me: Or as I like to call it an exercise in the futility of my existence. Engineer: *pauses for a moment* That too.