This being loved by them So deeply So honestly Threatens to burn me From the inside out How can I hold onto this Carefully cultivated Blanket of self-hatred If they crawl under To cuddle And find me there Soft and vulnerable Wanting to be loved Wanting more than anything To love As deeply As honestly… Continue reading
I can’t be the only parent in the world that has to write fan fic about the characters in the books you read your kids, right? It’s like kids’ books totally leave out all the good shit!
All day has been spent looking for the very important papers for The Engineer to take to work…papers that he has neglected to mention in the past three weeks that he was out of the office that I could have looked for at my leisure. It’s a good thing I can’t actually kill people with… Continue reading Panic Switch
The way his hair sticks up just so in the back the freckle on his chin Her wild tangle of hair and blueberry grin The gentle way she washes his back As he scrubs her toes The bubbles fill the tub They fill my heart Until I think it could float to the ceiling And… Continue reading Wash Day
C comes storming into the room while I’m on the phone with my mother. He releases his steam in the form of a string of rants. She asks what he’s going on about. I tell her that he’s angry and telling me the reasons why. I let him know that I’ve heard him and the… Continue reading
Snuggling next to the Engineer on the bed, I hear the thundering of a child up the stairs. I quickly stick my head under his shirt and lay still. C comes in and starts his hourly diatribe. I don’t move or speak. He finishes and bounces off down the stairs. I resurface. The Engineer looks… Continue reading Pay No Attention to the Woman Under Your Shirt
She is loved Because she was loved Can I be loved Because I created love From nothing?